Dear Realization,

In-fat-u-a-tion (ĭ-fāch'ōō-ā'shən);
1. To inspire or possess with a foolish or unreasoning passion, as of love
2. A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction
3. An object of extravagant, short-lived passion


thank you for making me think all that time that you were


Love;
to have love or affection for another person; be in love.(v)



What I Had Was;
a love affair; an intensely amorous incident.


Love, no matter the time/place, stops for nothing.
You're not embarrassed by love...you aren't afraid to admit to the WORLD when/who you're in love with...
So there's no way I've experienced that
and there's no way he loved me either.




So, I'll wait...

Thank you.

((chucks mic))

To Whom It May Concern,

Listen,
I can't necessarily say I'm heartbroken..because I'm not. I'm a bit broken though... I've rummaged through my soul to see what I could come up with. I found solace in such a journey. A sort of yearning. There's a lot to be said;

I'm mending, so to speak. From a war on both sides. I've forgiven a lot of shit but I can't seem to forget it.
but there is one person that puts me in a place of forget...as if nothing else ever happened.

((hmm..))

let me reiterate, I am not heartbroken, but I am broken.
I feel at a lose sometimes.
Call it depression.
Call it whatever the fuck makes you feel better.
Either way, it's something.


Yearn (verb); to have an earnest or strong desire; long.




Perhaps that explains it..Perhaps not.
Perhaps it's him (you)... Perhaps it is not.


Yeah, I yearn to fall into this.
Into him (you).



((Im saying too much))



Again, I have a sadness about me that plagues me. A silence about me that confuses me. A yearning about me that entices me....
There's just something about the look in those eyes, that I can't quite put my finger on..
So I will sit here.
Patiently.

Genuinly.

Until I figure out what it is, and why I yearn for it (you) so badly.

(drops mic)

Dear Misconception,

I had you near…you polluted my soul… I felt the need to have you…knowing I did not…

Say you will… please let me go…I gave too much…now here I am…and there you are..

I can pretend I loved you so, heaven knows I did… think…you were mine… I’m taking my life down a road of pure ecstasy… because I refuse to be wrong… I was wrong, but I was right. And I will wait… at least I felt I would…

A thousand letters could never get you to understand how much you truly meant to me. Now it’s a façade. A simple lie that was a big truth, but an unknowing catch. I figured I could beat it away. Out of mind. But there you always ended up.

God knows I love everything you’ve helped me to become. I thank you for that. But I cannot sit here and wait. My heart yearns for too much now…And all that’s left are the shattered pieces of never knowing, but not having the patience to wait it out.

Selfish. Guess you can call it that. But I’m too sensitive to sit, listen, and watch you be with someone that is not me.

So friend, here I am. There you go. You’ll never truly realize how much you consumed me. And that’s okay… a thousand words couldn’t get you to understand. The rest of our lives, may have already passed.

You’re still the warmest sun to have ever graced my face.

Simply,

Me.